Best Summer

Turns out that getting fired from my job came just in time for summer! Being on unemployment made it possible for me to have a great time! I was looking for a job but I took full advantage of having so much free time! I have been camping in Lake Powell, Bear Lake, Little Sahara Sand Dunes, Tooele, Lava Hot springs, been boating all over and just play play play! Its been so much fun! I have often wondered how I fit a job into my busy schedule before....lol. But alas it has finally come time for me to get a job. Had an interview I am hoping to get, so cross your fingers. Still living in the same place and just trying to let life happens as it comes. I am looking forward to whatever lies ahead! Below are just a couple pics from my fun...

Meeting the ReAl Soccer team with my roommate Rachel. He is my favorite....so cute!

80's Dancing with Rachel! Love the hair!

Went 4 wheeling at Little Sahara Sand Dunes with John and his roommates. Had a blast but...

This is the site where I flipped a 4 wheeler on top of myself...literally end over end. I'm really lucky that it wasn't worse! Separated my clavicle and damaged the cartilage between my sternum and ribs. Don't really recommend it!

The crew lined up lookin good!

More Playing

I have been super busy bein social and playing lately. Its been a lot of fun! Last week I threw a big party at the park by my house. It was a whip cream slip n slide/BBQ. Would you expect anything else from me?! Lol. We had a good turn out and everyone seemed to have a good time. Also went to the Tim McGraw Concert on Friday. I have had my ticket for 3 months and have been looking forward to it! Always wanted to see him in concert since high school. He is a hot cowboy I must say! Did some more boating and conquered the wake finally! :) And went to a demolition derby, which is my favorite white trash event! Good times!

The slip n slide

My roommate Rachel with some of the people willing to try the slide

Me covered in whip cream after sliding down! Lol so fun!
Me, Jill and Haley at the Concert!

Lava Hot Springs

I recently went to Lava Hot Springs, in Idaho with my birth mom and her kids. It was the perfect trip for them. Its a tiny little town but is a pretty popular place. They have an olympic size pool with slides and diving platforms. We spent the day at the pool camped over night and then the next day we floated the river. It was a blast and the kids loved it!

Being Crafty!

Since I have moved so much over the past couple years I haven't put my pictures up or decorated my room forever. For Christmas I got a new comforter and have been changing the colors of my room to black, white, red and silver. So I have been having fun decorating and being all crafty! Its been nice to have my room looking so cute! I love it! Above is a photo board that I made all by myself! Im super happy with how it turned out! :)

Play Play Play

Have had a pretty busy past month. I am actually currently jobless. I took a trip down south to St George in the company truck to drop off a bunch of items to clients. It was a fun trip but I came back to just be let go without any warning. Its a pretty messed up situation but all in all I am very glad to not have to deal with the dishonesty and drama that goes on with that company. Even though it is stressful looking for a job right now, it hopefully will all work out to be a good thing. When I was in St George I was able to hang out with a good friend AJ who came up from Vegas to see me. My friend Lindsey got married and also got to see some other good friends there and in Cedar. I also ran their midnight 5k they have down there. It was a lot of fun and I finished in good time! I think I could get into running more....but no marathons in the plans! Lol. We finished soccer and have just been waiting for another season to start, which is tomorrow and I am very excited for it! Hopefully we will do even better together as a team.
I have been out boating and playing at Lagoon whenver the weather decides to be nice! Has been driving me crazy that its been so up and down here. But I think the nice weather is finally here to stay!
I stopped dating the other guy I was seeing and am now starting to date someone else. Lol. He is a very good guy and things seem to be going well. But as usual we will just see how things go. I'm getting more and more worn out in dating, but keep trying to be positive about it! Have to trust something will workout one of these days. Until then, just having fun and focusing on myself!

In Vegas with Kim

Boating!

Lindsey's Wedding

Update,....Finally I know.

Well I know I have been horrible at blogging for the past several months. Think its because I spend all day on the computer at work and so when I'm not working I dont want to be on the computer. And...well haven't felt like I've had a ton of great things to blog about. But for those of you who use this as your way to keep tabs on me...I'll give you an update.
I am STILL working at the same place, which just keeps getting to be more and more of a joke. But the good news is that I am very close to making the big change to something else, hopefully in 2 weeks, but not for sure yet. Cross your fingers it works out so I can keep my sanity.

As for my dating life...well I really dont understand how it seems to come so easily for some. Lol..it is definitely not coming easily here! But there is still a particular guy in the picture. (not sterling!) He is amazing and we seem like a perfect fit. We have a strong connection, but once again the strength of the connection has kinda freaked him out. At this point I am just trying hard to trust in the timing of things and see what happens. So I will keep you posted.
On that note, I am at a point in life where I am trying to make some major changes. I had previously been bitter and angry about things not working out the way I wanted in life. So I have been trying to control them, which I have finally submitted to realizing it is out of my control. and I am giving myself back to the Lord and trying to follow his plan for me. So I am just trying to do what I know is right and let things fall into place. Its amazing how just some small changes and then big changes have brought such a happiness back to me. So much of life is about our attitudes and how we deal with what we are dealt. I know that one day I will be blessed with those things which I so long for.
I have really been trying to focus on myself and do things for me. One of those things is that I started playing soccer again! One of my roommates plays a lot and got me into it. I started on a coed indoor team and then recently started on a womens outdoor league. It has been so much fun! I love it and should have been doing this years ago!
Below are just some recent pics taken recently to show some of the fun I've been having.
My roommate Rachel and I in our jersies at the Jazz Game

One of my besties Kate was in town and got to finally meet my birth mom Sharlene. Kate was the person who called her for the first time for me, so it was about time they actually met.

HOLI Festival of Colors!

So there is a celebration called the Holi Festival of Colors that they celebrate in India. Utah is home to the largest Krishna Temple in the US and they hold this celebration as well. It is a huge event that tons of people from all over Utah and surrounding states come to participate in. Everyone buys these bags of colored chalk and then just throws it all on each other. They have a count down to when everyone is supposed to start at the same time, but most people are pretty covered before it even starts. It is a crazy little party, but so much fun! Then there is food, dancing, and well just a bunch of colored, dirty people! I have heard about this for a couple years and have known people who have gone before but havent made it til this year. I am so glad I did, cause it was a blast! We just went with a group of people and from the pics below, you can tell how covered we got! The color comes out easier than you would think, but there were a couple parts of my body that were stained for a few days! And I blew purple boogers for a day too! LOL. Good times!

New roommate Fabiola and I just a few minutes after getting in the crowd!

In the cloud of color when everyone started throwing it!

The big color dust cloud!

Our group all colorful!

Fabs and I with the temple in the backround
I crowd surfed! So fun and they didnt drop me!
My pink eye...im a pink Avatar! Lol.

Birthday/Cancun

I am sorry that I have been such a bad blogger over the last several months. Life has just been a bit crazy and busy. But just to catch you up on a few things....I was able to find a new place to live and moved into a house with three other girls that I really like. Hopefully this is a good move for awhile. I am still working at my job at ITEX which I am SO not happy at. I have been trying to focus more on getting a new job, but hasnt been going too well. Will be happy to make that change soon if something works out. I have been dating Sterling still until the past week. I have finally ended things with him because he has been so up and down with me for so long and I just can't do it anymore. I still care a lot about him, but he just isnt on the same page as me and isnt willing to give me what I want. I know he will regret letting me go but the good news is that I have felt really good about it and am doing surprisingly well with letting him go. There has been another guy around, which has been good. That is all I'll say about that for now until I know more where things are going. Lol. Overall I am doing well and having a good time meeting new people and trying to just enjoy life.

Well I have somehow reached the 28 mark...seems so weird to me cause I still feel 25. I put together a trip for myself for my birthday to help me feel better about getting closer to 30. So was able to go to Cancun for a week! It was such a fun trip and a needed break from life. We just spent the week relaxing and enjoying the beach and warm weather. I was very tempted to not ever come back home. But I did of course and my birth mom and her family were nice enough to do a birthday dinner for me. She made me a delicious cream cheese pie instead of cake! Its been so nice to have family around and get close to them. Was the first birthday I have spent with family since I was 18.

The kiddos after singing to me. And no worries I got all the candles out in one blow! ;)

Oh how I love the beach....it was such a pretty one with way blue water!

Dinner at Hard Rock Cafe

One of the best dinners of the trip!

A little disturbing that they have the meat out like the vegetables, completely not covered! Gotta love Walmart even in Cancun

I'm Back!

Wow...it sure has been a long time since I have posted anything. To be honest, it has just been a busy couple months and well...things have been a bit tough for me so haven't felt like I have had much to say. But I will give you the update on my life.

The most frustrating thing about the last couple months is that I am once again homeless, yes I know its ridiculous. My roommate decided that she was going to move and left me in a situation where I had no choice. I had something else lined up but it fell through at the last min and left me without a place. So for the last month I have been crashing with my friend Haley and her husband. Thank you to them! There just hasnt been many new options that weren't weird situations or bad locations so I am still on the hunt. I am trying hard to not just jump into a place but have it be one that I can stay at for awhile. I am SO sick of moving! But I hope to have a place picked out hopefully by the end of the week.

My job has been frustrating and not really making me happy. I have been wanting to get back into massage and so I applied around and started working for a place part time. I am hesitant to get back into it just cause I have to make sure its a place that is busy before I quit my job, so that I dont find myself in a bad financial situation again. But I ended up quitting after 2 weeks cause I was getting propositioned for other things like every day...what the? Craziness! Since then I just have had too much going on to look for other places so once I get settled I will be on the hunt again.

As for my dating life...ha...always interesting. I never mentioned that Sterling and I broke up back in Sept. Came out of no where once again and was very hard for me. But he is just very scared of getting serious again and so he kinda freaked out when it was really good. Doesn't make a lot of sense but he has a lot to work through. Even though its been hard, it has been a good thing for us. We started dating again, not "techincally" exclusive again but we pretty much act like it. Things have gotten a lot better recently and so we will just see where things go.

The holidays were alright. Actually the first year in my life I wasn't totally into it. Just hard at this point in my life cause the things I really want don't come under the tree and Christmas is just more fun when kids are involved. Been a hard couple of months. But I am definitely looking forward to this New Year! I am so ready to put 2009 behind me and hope this year will be much better! I will try and be better at posting more! Hope you are all doing well!